Saturday, August 22, 2009

Syazwan, The Ungrateful Brat

See, I’m not the most handsome guy on earth or anything. I don’t look like Tom Cruise. But don’t get me wrong. I’m still thankful with what God has given me. I’m not ugly or anything. In fact, I am ashamed to admit this, sometimes I imagine that I am this really hot guy, the Greek god of the modern world. Yes, I am quite vain.

I certainly am not the most athletic guy around heck! I hardly play any sports, one of my greatest chagrin in life.

I love dancing and music and acting and writing and reading books. But again, I’m not noteworthy in any of those respects. I can dance ok but I’m sure Maryam and Hamidi will testify to this I’m not a good dance student. I’ve imagined myself winning the Academy award but I’m sure I won’t be winning it anytime soon.

And as much as I’ve convinced myself that I have a voice that would rival Siti Nurhaliza’s unfortunately, dreams continue to exist in an alternate dimension.

Writing? Well, let’s just say that it is an impossibility for this blog to win the Pulitzer.

I’m not particularly intelligent like Michelle or Joel. NO teacher will ever predict, I am very sure about this, that I’d be the next Newton or Einstein.

I’m not the most amazing orator. I’m not like Haqqa or Azam or Obama or Anwar Ibrahim. But I can speak in front of people. I can speak ok. Nothing amazing or life altering or anything like that. I doubt that any of my speeches will be featured in a future episode of “Voices in Time”.

i don’t know about you but I long to feel special. Does that make me a selfish, ungrateful brat? Maybe. I think I need to start changing my outlook. To see things with an eye for the bigger picture. I don’t see it now, to be honest. I hope that one day I will be able to see the big picture and realise that life is not just about me, but more importantly about others.

4 comments:

  1. Wah.I'm so honoured that you put me in the same sentence as Obama and Anwar Ibrahim AND Azam!

    Blah ah.You're Syazzy kot!That's like.WHOAAAAAA!Hahaha

    Btw,kau duduk TTDI Jaya ke?Coz a colleague from work was saying that a boy named Syazwan's flying to UK in September just like me.(but aku tak fly haha)

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  2. haha. dun wory. u always special for me.=)

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  3. to haqqa, yap! he's my neighbour kot. he told me that he knew this boy named haqqa. oh and apparently, he's impressed by your presentation that you did there. bapak aih! hebat gile haqqa! =)

    to dai, awww, thanks dai! you make me feel less pathetic hehe =)

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  4. to haqqa again, korang hebat pe... hahaha no seriously. you and azam are the most articulate persons i know =) and this is a sincere compliment so take it.

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